Ha ha matt was in love with gina for a while. Good times.

In a destructive yet random act of boredom i tore my toe nail off. i am not happy with myself.

Ok i just look like a loser. Who goes and sits at dions by themself? Me. That's who.

I feel unhappy today

ready for a ch-izz-ange.

Moving is probably the most frustrating thing in the world. I got all my furniture moved out, and I look around my apartment and I see all this little crap that I don't need but I can't get rid of so if feels like I'm not getting anything accomplished. I also have all of this stuff that I don't want so I have to take it to the thrift store but I don't have any boxes to put into and I don't want to be a complete douche face and take it to them in plastic bags. As of this wednesday I will be living in Edgewood, wasting gas like it's free and reusable. I hate that. I hope I can find peoples houses to stay at some of the time.

On a better note, I love music. I can't stop listening to it. The song on my MySpace is Daft Punk: Harder Better Faster Stronger. It's just super fun.

I wish I was living in Montana. I am really ready for a change from New Mexico. I've realized that I am so bored here. I'm ready to step outside of my comfort zone and go explore new places. I also miss Frankie more than most normal people miss others. I have a legitimate fear that if I stay apart from him to long that I'll just get used to missing him and not really ever want to see him cause I'm so used to not being around him. I don't know. I've just thought about it a little too much I think.

On Friday at work I felt so unwanted. You know when you're at a persons house and you feel like you've overstayed your welcome, so you get up and leave? That's how I felt at work, except I couldn't leave because then I'd just be walking out on my job. But yeah, so because I felt that feeling I figure that means it'll be ok for me to leave and actually move to Montana. I miss him sooooo much.

I don't have any interesting pictures today. Sorry.

I have the flu yet again.

My most recent decision.

So since Frankie and I are back together, one thing that has been really getting to me is his parents. Like, do I talk to them or do I just let them do their own thing? Frankie has already made me aware that they aren't too happy about me coming back into his life and re-entering their family. Coming from their side of the fence, I totally understand. I promised Frankie the world and then smashed all of his dreams to bits and pieces... But this was a year ago, and a lot has changed in a year. So coming from my point of view, which I might add is the point of view that knows the entire story, and knows my heart, I know that I've changed and that I want nothing more than to make Frankie the happiest guy alive. In conclusion, I've decided that no, I'm not going to go suck up to them. I love them to death, but they are just going to have to accept me for who I am and what I've done. I don't feel like I need to bow down at their feet and buy them chains of gold to win their approval in order to love their son forever. So... I guess I'm just gonna have to let it be.

Peace out.

Fwd: You have new Picture Mail!

See! I told you he loves me!

BAAMMM!

What now playa? I can't believe that I can actually say that I am the happiest girl in the world. He is definitely the love of my life and I am definitely so very happy! He's my shilly shleepy head, which is kind of ironic at this moment since I haven't really slept in days. It doesn't even matter.

Thank you God!!!!!

I think it's mildly funny how confident we are in ourselves when we're in a relationship, but the moment we are single all of our confidence is gone. Yet, while we are single and have low self esteem issues, we still try so hard to get someone else's attention. I mean, is it really worth it? No. I don't think so. I remember after James and I were over (we didn't ever really break up I guess.) I seriously would go to work (Starbucks) and flirt with any decent looking guy that came in the cafe or through the drive thru. I'm not going to lie, I got some mad tips, but where did that get me? No where. Well, technically it got me a tank of gas, but in my life, no where! I sort of feel like a fool. Ok, and here's another thing I've been thinking about. So we flirt with all of these people, but when it comes down to actually choosing one, the process of elimination is so fast that we should all be considered emotionaless douche bags. I don't know. I thought it was funny.

Yes

I want to go sky diving.

Daycare, Pants, and NyQuil

I just got home from Josh's house. I went to Kellie's house to pic up a butt load of photo's, then we made out way over to Josh's house to watch some of the creepiest things ever. I am now officially a bridesmaid so tomorrow we're going over to David's Bridal and I'm just going to pay for my dress and get everything situated. I am so excited for there wedding! It kinda sickens me.


Chris and I are....Friends? I have such a heavy heart, that I don't even know what to think.

There are may more important things happening though:
For example, Kimberly is not coming into Albuquerque because her sister Rachael was just diagnosed with breast cancer. That's awful and heart breaking. Keep her in your prayers!

I am getting uber stressed out at work lately. My co-teacher is an awesome lady, but her age seems like it's causing her to... I don't know how to put it nicely... slack off and lose her patience easily.

I'm so tired, but I don't want to sleep. I think I'm severely addicted to NyQuil, cause I want some sooooo bad.

OH MY GOSH, yesterday I went to Buffalo and I got 3 NICE pairs of pants for 24 dollars. Trust me ladies and gentlemen, I'm kinda picky about my clothes, but these pants were amazing. I'm so excited!

Ok, it's now time for me to take out my contacts and get some shut eye...Without NyQuil.

I feel so blah today. Absolutely nothing is making sense so now i'm just sitting in my bath giving up. Mood: apathetic. Peace.