what?

Oh, nevermind.

This past year I've repeatedly said that I couldn't date or marry someone who had parentals and family, but especially parentals, who disliked me. That hasn't changed, and this is hard.


screw montana. i'll go somewhere else.

EDIT: So in the past week, my life has changed...Yet again! At first I was SOOOOOO stinking mad, I couldn't even talk without crying about it. Let me shed some light on the situation. Frankie called. I wanted to be near him. We thought it would be a fabulous idea if I were to move out to MT. I gave my notice at work. I moved back home with family for a limited time, and I put all of my stuff in storage. A few weeks too late Frankie calls and says that he doesn't think that it's the right time for me to move out there. Does anyone know how incredibly mad I was? I don't think so. It took me a few days to simmer down. He just said that God had been doing so many things in his life and He was just putting it in his heart that this wasn't the right thing to do. He said that both him and I were finally on the right track with the Lord, that he didn't want to make any hasty decisions that could lead us astray from the paths we're supposed to be walking. And since both him and I believe and want to be together for the rest of our lives... What's the rush?

I feel really bad for blowing up on him, but I did. He said that he knew I would, but he had hoped I would understand his reasoning. I was just so mad that he would wait SOOOOOO long to tell me. Of course I understand now, I just really wish I wouldn't have gotten my hopes up.

Well with tons more prayer for patience and asking God what I was supposed to do with my life, it seems that I'm supposed to be moving to Las Vegas, Nevada. I have tons of family up there and my four beautiful nephews whom I can care for and now since they're older, they will be able to remember me! Honestly, Frankie doesn't seem to thrilled about it but I really am going up there for the right reasons. I've made some mistakes in my life, and I'm not about to ruin what I have with him. I really am happy with him and I can('t) wait to further it in the near future! So the excitement in my life still remains. I cannot wait to see where He is taking me next! I guess I should be pretty able to adapt to change.