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I sorta want to sleep the days away. I feel so unmotivated, and kind of at a loss for what I am doing here... I mean, I've been here for 5 days now and while it's been great to be hanging out with my nephews and sister and her husband, but I get soooo bored and I'm ready to move on. I'm terribly confused by what God has me doing, but I know he's making me be patient. I've been exploding a lot lately, and I haven't in a few days now. So, I guess that's good.

I left Frankie at the airport on the 24th and I cried the entire plane ride. Well, the entire plane ride off and on. Even the flight attendant asked if I was ok. This long distant relationship thing is super hard. All I really want to do is go to church and get involved... and I can't even do that. I wish God would just throw down a car and some car insurance from Heaven and toss the keys to me. That would be super.

I also need a job. Starbucks? I think so. I just want to be busy again. At least I don't want to call Frankie every second of the day if I'm actually doing something.

Ok, so Tenay (my sister) and I went to Michaels today and everything was like 30 times more expensive than it would have been in NM. I was appauled. Oh, and there isn't a freaking Hobby Lobby here. I believe that is an actual sin... Which is quite humorous, cause Tenay told me that Hobbly Lobby is owned by a bunch of Mormons. I should google that stuff. That's funny. I don't know, I'm just trying to decorate my room, and I want to do it for cheap, but not so it looks cheap. I'll just go hit up a few thrift stores.

I miss my kids at Noahs Ark. And all of the people who work there. I'm such a slacker.

OOOOHHHH my goodness. Last note: I was standing in Wal Mart the other day and some guy came up to me and asked me if I had ever considered modeling or acting. Naturally I said no, even though I totally had, and then he gave me his card. Trutalent management? They called me to go to an interview, but I went against what I wanted to do. Frankie thinks it was the best idea not to go in, but seriously, what if I missed my big break? Yeah right. Ah well. I don't think the limelight is what God has in store for me. But who knows, maybe. I like kids. And music. And tea. Tea is good.

Peace out, playas.