Happy people really do make me sad.

I woke up about an hour ago.

Josh text me and asked me how I was doing. I don't think he triggered this or anything, but the combination of a sad dream last night, a myspace message from someone I don't know, and the mentioning of him, put me in tears. This is just so hard. I know that instead of typing this blog I should be talking to God about it... but I wanted to share.

I know that I love him... And I know I love him enough to let him go. I just really don't want to.

Today is going to be hard.