My prayer

I don't think I' have ever been so upset in my entire life. I've been crying all day. Frankie broke up with me. I feel so.... Used... I guess. I don't know. We made life plans together. I just can't stop crying. He said that he felt God was leading him in a different direction, but i think that's bullshit code for "I shouldn't have ever called you." I love him. I've been talking to God all day just crying. I've tried to not question Him, but the occasional "why?" does come out. I love him and I don't want to live my life without him, but I guess I have to. It's so hard to write this. Not again. I don't want to do this again. I seriously thought I was done. 

Guys, I'm asking you to just please pray for me. For Frankie. I hope that he isn't lying to me. He says he loves me, but if he does... then I just don't understand. I don't understand love that fails. It's not possible right? Someone please tell me he's just running away from his problems, because we all know he's good at that.

I love him.

God, help me.