I woke up yesterday around 11am. I spent the day on MySpace talking to someone I haven't ever met. She seems really cool, and we actually get along really well.
Yesterday wasn't easy. I got so mad and sad that I felt like throwing up. I found out someone that I cared about is a compulsive liar about...well...everything. I always knew he was, but the things I learned yesterday threw me over the edge. I care about him. A lot. I called him in an outrage. I was shaking and near tears the entire time. He just doesn't understand what he's really doing. When I got off the phone I didn't feel better. I felt satisfied because I wasn't letting him run from his past. That's all he does is run. You know, maybe if he wouldn't keep making the same and then worse mistakes than before I would be ok with it. But he doesn't stop messing up. I realize people mess up, but the quantity of times he just royally screwed up was too much for me. He needs help and all I'm doing now is praying for him.
The girl I was talking to via MySpace was a girl that he dated. I dated him too. We both had an understanding for each other. Her and I talked through the night (like seriously... she watched the sun rise) but not just about him. We got along. But when it did come down to him, I found out even more stuff. The thing that bothers me the most is that he just didn't tell me. And not only did he not tell me, he covered up the situation with some random LIE. When he was in Albuquerque visiting he told me that he was going to go visit a guy friend of his. So he left me to go visit him. It turns out he was also talking to her and insisted on seeing her. You know, that wouldn't have been to big of a deal if he had told me. I obviously can't trust him. And not only did he see her, but he also completely ignored her. 1, rude! 2, why? I later found out why. Some other girl he had invited was there. This hurts. Why would he do this? He invited some random girl who neither of his other two friends knew and ignored them and talked to her... Now I find out he talks to her a lot, and he hasn't EVER mentioned her to me. (To sound like a 14 year old love stricken girl, she is on his top 8 now for crying out loud. what the?)
Is he Christian?
Not my place to judge.
But he might as well have just slept with her in public. Because that just about how bad he looks anyway.
17 years ago

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